So X-mas is over and  I am still not out of the woods...its a very difficult time for many in recovery and I am no different, to tell the truth I almost said to hell with it...the pain is just to great, while I am holding on to my little bit of clean time others are going on with their lives and really dont give a good god damn either way. You know if you know someone is is trying to recover from addiction, depression or whatever don't take it for granted that they got it, cause its a daily sometimes minute by minute struggle and being clean not always its own reward sometimes its just a constant reminder of all the harm I've cased and maybe just maybe I'll never be forgiven and maybe I shouldn't but who knows...I know that today I don't invoke harm on anyone intentionally, and I do not try to hurt anyone intentionally, so all you out there that think you got the market cornered on hard-luck stories... well I was a practicing addict once...Whats your excuse for being an asshole?! Merry xmas to all of you who decided I didn't deserve a good wish...I love you anyway. HO,HO,HO merry x-mas!!! (Check out the link)

      Well the first week at job search is going well, I've found that being honest and straight forward about my situation has been a double edged sword, there are many, and I mean really the majority... of potential recruiters and employers have been open and seemed  eager to help especially at Remedy Staffing. I got an interview this week! (wish me luck) So I am also learning that in this technologically advanced era that the face to face interaction is all but gone the deal now is a digital resume with lots and lots of key words in it. Lol! So with that in mind I'll keep making little goals and keep my positive affirmations up and I know that a blessing for me is just around the corner ...God Bless
     

PHASE 2
Get a job, that's right its that time tomorrow I get cut loose to find employment so that I can contribute to my up-keep I'm so very grateful to Bridges for the support I've received and yes, you can actually teach an old dog some new tricks so... now about the job! if anyone has any hot leads I'm willing to do what ever as long as its a legitimate tax paying position I've got tons of experience in all types of construction and light industrial (factory) work, so if you know of something please, please email me at tlsteele2011@gmail.com asap thank you and god bless.